are we missing the big picture?

are we?

oh by the way i was looking thru statistics in Singapore and its like 15% christians and over 50% buddhist. i wonder how they colate the statistics. and i wonder if i am captured as a christian or a buddhist. no one ever asked me if i were a christian or something. perhaps the 100000 forms that i filled in over the yrs did have a use.

so.. am i missing something here? the funnything is we never know what we dont' know. so am i missing something here doesnt really tell me much. whats the pt of pitting your ass at doing 1 thing? i wonder. i wonder why i was so bia in army. because i'd have to spend the time in there anyway. is it the money? i dun think so since theres not much anwyay. is it the learning? i used to tell myself tt, but did i learn much out of it? i guess i did.

so whats the purpose now? of trying so hard for an internship, etc. i'm not too sure about that. i wonder whether all these will matter, since i kinda surrendering them.. i dun think there is a need to feel pressured to find a gd job/internship/grade than others. i just think it will come if it will come. my job now is to get the most out of this education. holistic view. i will try my best at every opening i have.