studying endlessly always evokes emotions

for me at least.

which is why my mind wanders around when i am studying. which makes it really inefficient. i think i will give this one up man it seems. hai..

a while ago i looked thru my SMU email, in an attempt to clear mails. in it i saw many heartfelt emails from people. these are the emails that i save. and i even have folders. for example an LKC support grp folder, a basketball folder and what not. and coming back. i realised i was going to graduate from SMU soon. yes its still about 1.5 sememesters away, but i just feel, before i know it. i'm going to be gone soon. serious. i guess i wont say i feel a strong sense of belonging to SMU like i felt for JC or say dunman, but its a different feeling. one filled with more experiences rather deep ingrained friendships. and the experiences itself would prove to be worthy of rememberence i guess. but i guess in smu we are all so busy, maybe we'd only truly enjoy the frenship when we start working. i am making a big assumption here that we'd be slightly freeer when we work. which probably isnt true to start with. haiyo. this is life leh.

are my education days seeminly over? or am i destined to be a student my whole life? i like to ask overhwhelming questions. like "why cant we nationalise auditing"? since it fits well into the public good mould? or should it be paid by the investors? hm..

its 943. and i m not done with a single chapter. i am miserable.