De-Sensitivity

these days i've got days when i have lots of thoughts because on one hand, its transition period, which means to say tt the day that i am leaving in drawing near. and that also means that the day that jiewei will be leaving is really just days away.

even as I am really packing my days studying japanese. its also going to be a thing of the past since today is the last day of my full time class. kinda got used to going to school everyday for the past 2 mths or so. now its all changed again. leaving me a lot of time on my hands which i have no idea how to manage. same goes for money isnt it?

i'd always have all sorts of ideas on things that i wana do. but i always fall short. not too sure why.

i have about another month or so before i leave. and a final with week jie wei before she leaves. so many things are going thru our minds but we just choose to be desensitized. we dont even know if we're happy or sad leaving singapore and each other.

like it or not, we have grown to be dependant on each other. good or bad thing, i dont know. like it anot, even though i seem like the one who's independant etc, I too grow all too easy to get used to things within a short period of time. for example the 2 mths doing japanese. not to say a relationship that is of such time period and intensity.