today, i think i should not have external factors sway my day anymore. indeed life should be more purposeful than this lah. i feel so childish now. like primary sch got 90 for matsh then din get A* then sad like tt haha. cept that this time is its not between A and A* lah. hur hur. more like A pass and A fail. gr... want to grind my teeth also tough since the wisdom tooth is killing me. wat an oxy moron. wisdom kiling me.

i am really looking forward to the summer holidays coming. but i just think that it would'nt be as worth the wait as i have experienced last yr. "eh its here already ah ?" before you know it its already gone. but i hope at least with my discipline of like holding off certain things especially an internship, it would be ..

i feel like a little boy on an island trying to get the attention of passing boats. but they just sail by sia.... yet, that boy tries to tell himself that its ok, i've still got the monkeys on the island who cares about what i do. and when the monkeys ignore me i'd still have the boats. hm.. self deception. i guess this is the feeling that people get when they mention that in uni you don make that many friends. and then you can always fall back on the true friends you made over the years. but why is it so that i am spending so much time with the friends that so called dun matter, but not spending time with those that do? 80-20 and 20-80. think it may go up to 90-10 next yr.

make me think not that way...

i just found a great place to take photo in SMU. right on top of the new tunnel built that links stamford road to plaza sing. ha. where's my jungle hat. i'm in that mode already.

effect of a summa cum laude on your job pay: $500,000
being bubbly as always: priceless.

there are some things in life that can't be bought, for everything else, SMU equips you for it.