what title todae?

i am drained. i am exhausted. i cant come up with a brilliant idea anymore. dont expect anything more from me than a dismal underperformance. sitting in the middle of nowhere, i am even amazed that i could have seemingly 3 hours or so to sit down before the next meeting. JAded? a prof kinda defined the meaning of that word to a new level today man. but well duh..

do i sound jaded to you? i probably am not. just one of those moments. you know how its the 'in' thing to declare that you're a fighter to show that you are not giving up? like how David Beckham recently mentioned when there are rumours of him being redrafted back into the England Team? matter of fact? STOP WHINING. have you heard the phrase 'bite the bullet'? how did anyone come up with that? it sounds more like a scene in matrix or superman than to sae "Lan Lan suck thumb" right?

God probably created times like this to remind us to stop and smell the flowers, look at the clouds right? hm... so why did God create Wisdom teeth that grows perpendicular to the normal way teeth grow?

love hate relationship for seeing people walk by me.. means i am actually free enough for people to walk by me. also means that i am unnoticed..

lately its just been a feeling of being unappreciated by people in sch lah i guess. am i secure enough to know that there always would be people appreciative? haha. someone once said that to be secure we really have to know what we want in life and avoid all the fluctuations in emotions in between. agree man..

people comment that my blog is very real. i dun agree. i have missed out discussions on girlfriends, people who came in and out of my life. doesnt feel that good when i dun read about myself in that someone's life when i read her blog too.