badly bruised

i need counter pain!!!!.. but i guess more so at my heart. hai. was just joking with a friend that if we lose we'll use a lot of counter pain, not on our legs but on our heart. urgh.

badly bruised. left wrist. left ankle. right ankle. right knee now. left eye. right eye. right jaw. fingers. heart. ha.

season's over. suddenly feel lost as to what to do also. its like i've been focusing so much into trainings and ball that i feel lost now that i have to move on.

was this part of God's plan for me? that i'd have focused on something so much that i had everything to lose?

someone said i had no paragraphings in my blog. who says so? i have too many paragraphs it seems every sentence is a para. speaking of which i finished like an essay coz i couldnt sleep last night. to be honest, i'm like running on adrenaline now since i had less than 2 hours of sleep last night. i am not superman. when i get less than 6 hours of sleep at night it carries forward to the next day. seems like a long day for me again.

i know you well i know your smell. i've been addicted to you..