emomomo mimi momo
my excuse to everyone's that i'm still adjusting to life back in singapore. maybe i really am, but i feel someting brewing.. something that tells me i'd be really unhappy in the near future. i dont feel happy at all. of course the excuse is that i came back from a long holiday, thus facing back to reality is not tt fun after all, but i know i'm glad to be back in spore. in some sense i might be running away from things as of now. i dont know.
school has started and i'm like in the mode where its going to be a 4 mth without thinking again. in fact, i think its like going to be 8 mths since i foresee i'd be in 1 way or another busy for the winter holidays too. hai.. and then its work. i dont think i have time for my grad trip anymore. i dont know. but whats with grad trip?
what kind of decisions do i make in life? seemingly different from others. but i guess i havent been the kind who makes very independant decisions. eg, i would have went to RJ, if not for the basketball guys. i would have chose F maths over gf.. etc. haha. i'm conventional in a way. pretty safe travelling route in Europe as well. sounds exotic but its kinda mainstream.
i dont have a very strong mind of my own.. more like building on the ideas i've heard of, rather than being a 'creator'.
ok i'm digressing.
today's just this weekend that i deliberately stayed home since i've been out the whole week. literally. someting like what JJ would have described, about the sudden desire to just switch off of everything.
who do i hang out with ? i'm not sure man. definitely with the guys now i guess. the emo guys club. hahaa. this seems liek the season to break up. i've heard of at least like 5 couples breaking up alr. most of whom just came back from exchange. whats the problem?
have we seen so much of the world, that status quo just never seems enough. ? have we seen enough of the world? if we have, shouldnt we then understand that even if you keep yourself unoccupied just so there might be good things that come along for you to choose, you still have to chooose one eventually. and you can only in some sense live in ignorance and stay with the notion that you might not have made the best choice, but you havent made the worse either? something someone told me about as being contented with what you have. i agree. but doing it is another thing. human beings are sometimes morbid i think. a fren was telling me. she wants to break up because she wants to be sad for a while. hahaa.! sounds as morbid as the joker ! but he can be wrong sometimes too! check out the boat experiment.
i'm not writing any sense here?
school has started and i'm like in the mode where its going to be a 4 mth without thinking again. in fact, i think its like going to be 8 mths since i foresee i'd be in 1 way or another busy for the winter holidays too. hai.. and then its work. i dont think i have time for my grad trip anymore. i dont know. but whats with grad trip?
what kind of decisions do i make in life? seemingly different from others. but i guess i havent been the kind who makes very independant decisions. eg, i would have went to RJ, if not for the basketball guys. i would have chose F maths over gf.. etc. haha. i'm conventional in a way. pretty safe travelling route in Europe as well. sounds exotic but its kinda mainstream.
i dont have a very strong mind of my own.. more like building on the ideas i've heard of, rather than being a 'creator'.
ok i'm digressing.
today's just this weekend that i deliberately stayed home since i've been out the whole week. literally. someting like what JJ would have described, about the sudden desire to just switch off of everything.
who do i hang out with ? i'm not sure man. definitely with the guys now i guess. the emo guys club. hahaa. this seems liek the season to break up. i've heard of at least like 5 couples breaking up alr. most of whom just came back from exchange. whats the problem?
have we seen so much of the world, that status quo just never seems enough. ? have we seen enough of the world? if we have, shouldnt we then understand that even if you keep yourself unoccupied just so there might be good things that come along for you to choose, you still have to chooose one eventually. and you can only in some sense live in ignorance and stay with the notion that you might not have made the best choice, but you havent made the worse either? something someone told me about as being contented with what you have. i agree. but doing it is another thing. human beings are sometimes morbid i think. a fren was telling me. she wants to break up because she wants to be sad for a while. hahaa.! sounds as morbid as the joker ! but he can be wrong sometimes too! check out the boat experiment.
i'm not writing any sense here?
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