the itch after 7 years

today i went jogging... i guess this term is all on slow studying and jogging in betweens. i do hope i have the discipline to do just that. tonight is a friday night, and its rare on a fri night that i am not out.

i just felt so stifled today at home, trying to study and solve a problem that earlier did not contribute much to. sometimes i wonder how low i have to go on my self esteem before i will really buck up. must i experience an irrevocable damage to somethign before i have the discipline? hai. and so i decided i wanted to go for a jog. and since my last clocking was about 45 mins worth about 8km, i decided i needed to do someting longer today. factoring in all the traffic lights etc.. it sure was a long long run... i went back to places where i first visited 7 years ago. i was counting along the way and i realised its been 7 years. amazing haha. and i sat down on a bench and wondered how many 7 years we have in our lives. not that many apparently. and i was self inspired to want to do a good video on the trails that i experienced today. with good background music to reminisce the good old moments. and good old sepia lighting to go with the feel. that was my turning pt. i listened to 2 songs there and i turned back, heading home. somewhat of a symbolic gesture in the emotional highway. i looked down, with the blurring background of cars running past my hands in the foreground. they looked grey under the dim yellow lights. i crossed the bridge and went ahead on a path i wasnt familiar with back home.
life has to be this dramatic to be meaningful.