this life

I know its only going to get better from here. yet i find it difficult not to whin since everyting is such a bitch. studying is such a bitch when you are in it, but when you loook at it retrospecitve, its always nice because you look at the freedom times you had when in sch. breaks in between, time to relax, and engage in interesting things. no matter how the corporate folks try to replicate this with like team bonding things, friday morning huddles, its but an attempt to replicate that interesting interaction etc during sch.

things are oonly going to get better from here. at least that what i think it would be, even though i know its going to be a short 4 weeks of Dec before the whole cycle repeats itself. and of course i can lie to myself that next term is going to be easier since it is not the much hated accounting modules i am going to take. my archilles heels. but then again, looking at all the things i have in plans to do next term, i just think that its really overhwhelming, the things i set out to do. if i die today, i'd die with so many regret, not regrets, but feeling zan nen that i can't do them in this life. in life on earth. i have so many things that i want to do which i think if i dont, i really will feel so shitty. i wonder when i will be able to let go such that if i die tmr, i would die looking back and knowing that it has been a rather good life. i havent experienced so many things in life yet. but well. ok. quick blog. time to go back to study. me and my 2nd upper. whats with that?