Tuesday, January 19, 2010

看沉默的电话它什么都不说
看电视的画面它无声的闪动
看街上的行人跟我擦肩而过
整个世界太冷漠
我没有力气再往前走

看你紧闭的嘴唇它什么都不说
看你飘忽的眼神它无情的闪躲
看你和我的回忆跟我擦肩而过
你的改变太冷漠
我没有勇气大声地说

告诉我
你不是真的离开我
你也不愿这样的夜里把难过留给我

告诉我
你不是真的离开我
你是要惩罚我的爱让你失去自由告诉我···

Sunday, January 17, 2010

the parable of the lost bike

i lost my bike.

it didnt feel good.

but i should have known better. human beings are just so weird people. they could anticipate, they could preempt themselves. but when it sets in that you're so used to having something around, no matter how much prep you have that you might lose at right at the beginning, you're bound to feel sad.

Ie:

I bought the bike and decided to illegaly park it near the station, of which there is a chance of it being taken away by the city council right from the beginning. 1 mth passed, 1 mths passed, and it was still there. yes there was the occasional warning. but i didnt care, thinking everyday that passes, i'm like squeezing out its worth. after all, i got it at less than 80sgd. i must have made it worth it.

the thing is, i've grown into it. like it or not... if i had lost it right in the first week i was here, i'd have been forced to find other ways, and in that sense when i lose it, i guess it wouldnt have been that painful.

being together with someone. if i was in a relationship that didnt seem like it would work out from the beginning, it'd have been less pain to breakup at the start isnt it. or to not start it at all.
but human beings are just such creatures living in that hope. you cant believe such wonderful things are actually happening to you, but you just still have that hope, that mayb God just chose you... and in that hope, you're brought up to cloud 9...

life goes on

no matter what happens. life goes on. sometimes we get confused over who's the luckier one. the one who left or the one who's being left behind. like those people who are suffering from the aftermath the earthquake in Haiti.

life goes on and when things happens, we can only tell ourselves this: the only thing we can do is really to prepare ourselves to be stronger and if the time really comes when your strength is needed, you're ready for it and you're ready to be there.