its been a long time?

Lee Teng is the man!!! he is the superhost!!! indeed. i am most respectful of his attitude about learning and 'mo lian' oneself.. if its me i'd prob have dieded. he prob desrved that renault megane and cash prize of 50 k more than anyone else.

someone remarked to me that i havent been blogging forr some time.. wow.. pple nv fail to wow me.

sharlene wowed me yesterdae too. she told me shes got something that shes not so sure about telling me. i sensed bad news. she told me shes been hanging out with this guy frequently.. i asked for details so that i can fit a picture to it and then get over her. wateva... i duno wat to feel already lah.

some more emotional roller coaster? nah.. think it has already simmered down.

i tried to make myself focus on other stuff during this period, like work and friends and other stuff. or so i thought sia..

skin is peeling like a potato!! (do potatoes peel?) maebe orange. wateva.

ooh. i din noe profs get kicks out of seeing students engage in 'sensible' arguments. haha. no bonus nm!! just see argument enough to shiook already. !! haha. funny old man.

'our system is not like that' haha words of the wise old man.

so lately.. been wondering..

when i put random thoughts like that in my blog can anyone follow??? can someone pls give me some feedback? haha so evident that i am a biz student. feedback in blog.. wat the..

i wonder if the profs noe that i am blogging abt them so often. hah.

i think i have to forget about sharlene. i dun think i need a distraction like her. i used to think its not fair. i think the time when i can forget abt her is when i think that theres no need to be fair anymore. i tink i'd just say ok to her for wateva. but nevertheless i still do need time to get over her yeah? i hear so much here and there. circle of frens too small. eeryone noees everyone. gdness. somehow i like that feeling.. the feeling of walking a few steps and seeing familiar faces.. i wonder if i would survive oevrseas.. where no one noes me, and i noe no one. 2nd thoughts on going for exchange? you bet. i feel so attached to my family, paticularly when i dun live with them. so i feel funny going away. i missed them tremendously when i was in the army!! hm.. but then again i want to runaway sometimes. cnt leave my bro back here to die lah.. i want to get that place going with him man. wat the...

housewives... interesting topic huh. you can never leave out menopause in that discussion. i was a victim not once.... but twice of menopause. and i am very sure it wont be my last encounter hahahaha!!!! gdness. i wonder if guys have a similar period in his life. can i imagine myself grumpy and naggy and stuff?

when you hear enough abt yourself?

wow. i was disproven. pple actually do read my blog. i am impressed. seriously. i think it is heartwarming.. to noe that people are concerned that you are 'depressed' in your blog.

my mentor/pastor/friend/coach/guide/spiritual father just told me that i am on an emotional roller coaster after reading my blog. how come i dont know abt that? nah.. not really, i do understand that i am really on an emotional ride.

how come i am so discontented with my life now? do we all jus search for better lives all our lives?

when your FA prof teaches you on Valentines Day.

been surviving on little over than 3 hours of sleep for the past 3 daes.. i think this is the real test to whether one is cut out for uni education. those wh cannot work in this kind of schedule, prob find it v difficult to fit in.

Today is Valentines Day. less people in the world would noe that it is my birthdae. i usually get roughly the same reaction upon telling pple that i am a valentines baby.

being born in V day has its pros n cons. pple might rem ur brithday but you sure get less gifts than everyone. haha.

coming to school on your brithday is yet another gd and bad. u shake a thousand hands!! and they all sae.. 'wah ... how are you going to celebrate Vday with your girl?" "gd what like that, your gf will buy u present" things like that.

when your stats prof talks about mars...

when your accounting professor only post questions to girls in class...

my financial accounting class is proffed by Gan Tin Hua. looking at his eye bags, he must have read all the books in the world. on one look he doesnt look like a prof at all, more like middle l ife crisis retrenched old man who preys his eyes on younger female colleagues in the company..

i am so mean.

'ogah?'

why is it that i dun ever mention my gf in my blog?
ans: i am highly afraid she'd read it and think that i am criticising her online. and i am afraid. i really am.

this very familiar feeling in school

somehow i feel like an outcast in school now. but i know i am not lah.. its just that remarks from some people really spoil your day. i feel like a victim of remarks in secondary. like being bullied by some older boys in school. i was never bullied.. aha. only i bully people.. i feel i more or less operate like a loner in school. more or less like the way i functioned in previous school days, even in the army. sometimes diversification doesnt occur with friends. when you try to make all your friends happy you end up making non. i dun belong to any distinct grp in sch. i feel like i am just roaming around. and when i get remarks that brand me as the one who only goes for girls, i hate it.especially by guys who themselves are the ones going out to know new girls and stuff. i really hate it. perhaps they dont know it. my 'brothers in christ' in school.

who listens to a song called 'dissolve' on a saturday afternoon when he has like make up classes for the whole day from the morning til 430 non stop? gdness.

in the class now in fact. this is my routine. blogging in class. sleeping at hm. study before exams. haha. what a wining formula!

wasting time blogging is clearly not a good substitution for paying attention in a finance class man. damn.

1:49 pm why are my peers asking questions that i do not even catch?

1:55 pm bombardments have stopped. perhaps i should stop feeling insecure.