being thankful once again

Its been one of those. dramas have such an impact on people's hearts i think. sometimes i get my source of motivation from watching these dramas. they make you wana work hard, wana fall in love, wana have a certain way of proposing, setting up your living room... etc.

I, on the other hand, has had this feeling of being thankful for the small little things in my life. like having someone I could come home to. whether is it human or birds. haha. my 2 small little parakeets are really making me love them and hate them at the same time. but at the end of the day, i'm just thankful of them being just here. sometimes i sit down and observe them for a bit, sometimes i let them out. as i am typing this, they are both resting on my shoulders, of which i have no idea when is the next moment they would poop on me. something which I have already grown used to.

sometimes i skype my friends with them on me, sometimes i brush my teeth with them on me. sometimes i even eat with them on me.

i used to think they're really great to get off that loneliness in tokyo especially when you're living alone in a foreign land. but they've grown to be a part of who i am here and i really dont feel that sense of commodifying them nor the sense of burden or responsibility to have to come home to feed them or something. they're just a part of me now..

as i romanticize my recent thoughts with lots of romance dramas and books, i still cant imagine how it can all work out...

hisashi buri no blog

its been a while. and its not the first time i'm saying this. this goes to show the kind of person i am. things come into play as and when i feel like it. there's no routine in my life. there's nothing that I do on a regular basis except for eating, showering..... you get the idea. which forces me to make a lot more decisions that most people, I would presume.

ok. this is not a post to bring myself down. its a post to show appreciation.

that out of all these emotions I've been feeling in tokyo. there lies a lot of thankfulness in my heart, to be able to be here at this point of time. to have experiences that I have pictured and wanted. and even surprises. this morning, i was cycling and i came to a stop at a junction. and i looked back and saw this sakura tree standing right there. yes it was alone, but it was beautiful. this kind of things, i am thankful for.

this week, i was auditing a korean class which i couldnt take for some reason. and to be starting again to learn another language, its the kind of feeling i havent had for a long long while. the last time i was learning the equivalent of an abc of a language was when i was in denmark. and i am thankful for that. to have a story to tell people about learning korean in japanese in japan. that would sound interesting isnt it? altho its nothing.

to be able to make a conscious decision about wanting to go home. not only to feed my birds, but also just to get out of this social thing that i've been doing. to have time alone to myself to write a blog entry like this, watch drama, learn jap and korean, improve myself. yes. improve myself.