snippets

saw:
this what do you call tt, the heavy vehicle with that claw like structure that lifts things on the road. cant rem lah. excavator? yeah. and it was lifting pieces of the tar road. kinda looks like our fork indulging in pieces of oreo crumbs on our oreo cheesecakes.

havent been blogging, been reading blogs more. a major rarity for me, considering my self centredness. i like others to read mine, but never can be bothered to read others'.

where are all my frens who are supposed to get their x mas cards from me? haha. i hate to keep x mas cards after x mas. i duno y.

can not push myself to maintain this blog anymore. its too tedious. i find it tough to TRY to write. but then again. who says i need to.

been training like day and night for bball
i guess this is it. my last burst. and i know i'd regret if theres anything i'm giving that is less than all i've got. i'm saving my all for this final burst. this final season. i know the odds are against us, i know that there are many factors. but well. if this could be a good yr.

i'm almost like afraid to be in responsibility of another's life. i hate the feeling of like jealousy, having to set rules in a relationship, having to know tt you have a set of rules to follow, constantly on the lookout for people who might threaten the relationship, always on the lookout for potential quarrels, blah blah blah.

sitting early in macs

my days are divided into 3 slots, the morning slot, the afternoon slot and the night slot. once in a while i could do a late night slot for supper. and that would compromise on the morning slots. woke up uncharacteristically early this morning. ha. felt a sense of having unusually more time in the day. i am almost doing nothing now waiting for time to reach 130 before i would head up to tower 4 for a presentation to my ex boss. ha. sitting in macs at lunch hour sure allows you to look at people in their office wear. i see this daze in their faces. but then again. i see that very same daze in mine. isnt it?

God has been soo good to me. i'd say. what is the single biggest asset that God has given me? i'm so tempted to say its my irritable face, or my body that reacts so quicly to workouts, or maebe a relaetively nice voice? or a relatively quick ability to pick up things.

but then again, i think God's greatst gift to me is simply me in my way of handling my interactions with people. tangible?

seems like its time to go up, but i am such an on the dot person, i am not used to going to places early. i like to be on the dot, perhaps thats y people say i am late, coz i am either punctual or late.

hols always seems to be busier times for me than sch time. considering my relatively easy to do semester this time round. thank God i did pretty ok this sem too. hope that it could be better than previous.

brain juice depleted

i find myself in this state where i kinda like have run outta whacky ideas for interesting blog titles to entertain my readers. its like from this day on, i'd announce to the world that i have lost it, just like spiderman losing his powers.

basketball camp kinda like ended on a high for me, esp when i see all putting their all in training again. havent had this feeling since those JC days of running like mad and those duo ming stair cases!! or so i said to rambo. "havent had this feeling for a long time man" yet, i felt that it was gd and effective. yuhong also mentioned that even tho we din finish all the exercises that coach asked us to, we still felt that everyone gave their best. on top of that the team talk on the first day really meant something to me. plus all the bonding that went on during the camp, inter guys team and inter team with the girls. awesome time. had a lot of fun playing pictionary. must invest in taboo man.

seems like i am really building up to something this year. feels like somehting never felt before. on the one hand i am feeling that i am improving as a player, on the other, the team feels that it is training hard. things are really in place this year to put an end to on a high of my so called "basketball" career. not so sure about that. but let's give this yr a shot.

it is so significant that shiro came back and the bball guys i had all my life, had a chance to get together again. which is really awesome. at this right time, to even share with me about how his team in JPN was like and stuff, tho i did not have the chance to share elaborately how this whole thing in SMU is about, i still felt a different sense of refreshment in seeing those brothers again. it kinda gets me off the episodes in life for a while, knowing that i always would have this bunch of really good frens in life to share with, when they come back every once in like 5 yrs or so. ha.

where is God in all these? i have always been trained to be focused on 1 thing at a time, so this season its really all abt basketball. everything to do is abt this season. i'm not like wasting time clubbing, not wasting time mugging, catching up with anything. all these i have once again kinda like placed them on the waiting list that i have. which always is accumulating i am sure.

jian

a day of happenings.

havent heard of news that any of my team mates actually reading this. ha.

today is really a long day at work. thinking of it, i had a couple fo firsts.

got my jersey with the word 'team singapore' printed on it. woo hoo. first. no flag tho. not to shiok. ha. but got all those track suit and what have you lah. so well, tho it feels like i am paying for it since i really did pay for it. ha.

did a team talk with my team mates at the end of first day of camp. which is now. lying in the midst of like 12 other snoring corpses typing away. haha. uphold the VJ tradition ah. for once in SMU i felt that i was fulfilling my role as a captain. tho not much anyway. ha. feels like a pseudo captain. but well, i've made up my mind on whats the thing for me this season. so well.

played pictionary with the girls team while all sleeping. tmr confirm gana.

tmrs' gona be a long day again aniwae. but i think really, this yr might just be the yr that we'd have something coming out of it. we might just win. top 4? a medal? i'm not to sure. but we might.... out grouping is the easier grouping man. i think so at least. tho we can practically lose to anyone in the league lah.

i dun need to prove to anyone on anything. i do not need to prove that i have the capabilities of leading a team that could win. is that my handicap? i do not think so. i've always learnt it the hard way. not gonna let me off this time too?

ashway. my new favourite brand.

even my basketball shoes are the colours of spore. white red. am i focusing on the wrong things again by going to AUG? feels like me leaving my platoon and going to ranger course again. once again. this kind of life choices.

this will surely be a defining yr in my uni life.

yr 2.

the feeling of responsibilty sucks. commitment phobia. wild horse. running the plains.

finally. coming. kuming. cohming.

been such a long time since i posted. a friend mentioned about using the term "time flies" so extensively she doesnt even know what to feel now that she is saying it. its yr end. should be happy or sad ah? hm..

i've been busy with 2 things lately. should be exam. but turned out that 2 friends came back from australia and Japan and we spent all the time together reliving those memories. i'd say the past week, i've got to know them more than the past 5 yrs combined. i sinceerely think so. such a gd feeling.

now that the exams are over there seems to be like mountains of things waiting for me to finish. think abt the never ending trainings that is going to take place this hols. i think i have become bouncier as a result of air alert!! hahaha. awesome. love the feeling of jumping real high. haha.