i think...

i think God is telling me to stop doing anything this season. stop packing myself up with trying to get into this and that. coz he won't grant me anything anyway.

i got another glimpse of apocalypto and i immediately zoomed to this part of the show:

"i am Flint sky. i have hunted this forest from the day i came of age. my father hunted this forest with me and before me. my son hunts this forest with me. he will hunt it with his son after i am gone."

grades

its not about how much you know. eventually everyone would know about the same amount anyway. its about how early you know stuff.

a new conviction

this morning just had the urge to blog lah. and i realised why this term din blog much. coz i have mostly morning classes, and morning rush means i cant blog on the train unlike last term when i went to sch in noon and the trains were empty then.

today i just reconvicted myself that i really wana do community work. if i could dream big and gather like minded people with me to do those work in areas in south east Asia like Cambodia, Vietnam, and other countries... i got excited at this thought, and what more practical but to just work my ass off to raise money for these areas and make sure that money given is well spent either by the local organisation or funds simply managed by our people. and once we are done with one village we move on to the next. in this way, there must be one day where we would cover the whole of a country and move on to the next one right? and like this, one by one i just hope that people in these areas would be helped. my dream is that no one in South East Asia would go without education unless its their choice.

sounds so idealistic. can be done? i feel a great sense that this is what i want to do. to sit by the beaches of a coastal area, and simply teaching children in a village what it means to live..

The Tower of Babel

Genesis 11
The Tower of Babel
1 Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. 2 As men moved eastward, [a] they found a plain in Shinar [b] and settled there.
3 They said to each other, "Come, let's make bricks and bake them thoroughly." They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. 4 Then they said, "Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth."
5 But the LORD came down to see the city and the tower that the men were building. 6 The LORD said, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. 7 Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other."
8 So the LORD scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. 9 That is why it was called Babel—because there the LORD confused the language of the whole world. From there the LORD scattered them over the face of the whole earth.






are there any towers in your life?

the warmth of fresh blood

had a nightmare last night. 2 in fact. the first of which is the fact i cant sleep when i want to. not cant but not allowed to!! boo hoo. have to study and as a result cannot sleep. arghh! i promise i wun do last min work again. have been said to be a gd firefighter but never plan my time well. always give the impression to people that i am like spreading myself too thin. sounds like my Ben and Jerry's case.

the 2nd nightmare was a real nightmare which i had when i dozed off at sae abt.. 530am? miraculously i woke up at 726am just in time for school. its def my body clock. hm.. i wonder how it works. let's do research on it. i dreamt of being at the rooftop of a God knows how many storey house. and when we look down it was like pretty high. high enough to fall and die. and it was like a dark and stormy night. and then there was a gate which was like spoilt such tat there was no barricade at the sides and anyone could fall off. and i was with like people who started behaving strangely. like taking out knives and do the stabbing action. so on. scary lah..

and then later in the day... i could feel the warmth of fresh blood........ from myself. haha. i was giving blood lah. hahaha. was a little giddy tho, since i din sleep like 2 hours last night. half sharing with a sister regarding my blog.