boredom indicator

blogs indicate how much free time one has. doesnt it. those who like blog 5 times a day obviously have no life. kidding lah. but makes certain sense doesnt it. like me. i have no life. thats y at hm on xmas eve n x mas.

so you sailed away..

into a grey sky morning..

now i'm here to stay.

love can be so boring.

...

but its not so bad

you're only the best i 'ver had

this is almost how i look like when i am at home doing nothing. or when i wake up at 2 pm into the day.

枫

let it snow

sometimes x mas filters the frens that care and the frens that dont, dont it. i think the one who bother to write you a note or better still get you a present are the ones. so i think i fail in terms of being a fren. the only presents i remember getting are the ones for gift exchanges and stuff and one to my girlfriend. i got absolutely nothing for family, spiritual family, friends.. nothing at all. feel a bit bad now. no wonder i am staying at home on xmas even night when everyones partying somewhere.

a little detached somehow.

thoughts been running thru my mind awfully lot these daes. havent been having a single gd nights rest. someone n only someone noes abt this. been waking up at 5 am with this soreness at my throat. its itchy and pretty bad. so bad i am having difficulty sleeping. irritates me many nights. this brings me to mornings when i am practically a zombie. need naps in the dae to replenish the lack of sleep. cutting my day short by that number of hours. i hate that. functional person, or so many hav said abt me.

do i stop ever once in a while to do things like telling myself the sky is blue? or even appreciating that it is blue?! i guess so. i look at ponds with fish in it and wonder how it feels to be them. i wonder what mac thinks when he sees humans bathe.

i used to write to girls like i write to my diary. i rem i addressed all my journal entries to this girl for a while. and when my heart changed, the addressee changed to. but i guarantee you that the person i write to is never my girlfriend.
its always someone who broke up with me or something. guess i'll be writing real soon. or maebe i can address my blogs to someone. ha.

heres the card i gave to my girlfriend as promised

addicted

the laptop seems to be a more addictive device than the handphone. the harm the handphone does to us socially is overrated. the laptop is the silent killer.
combined with the powers of MSN and Blogging, the laptop can make even the most social creature stay stuck in front of a 12 inch screen for easily more than 4 hrs a dae. that amounts up to XXX yrs in our lifetime!!! you do the calculation.
meet up your friends. dont msn. most of the time you chat with 4 or 5 pple at a time for 2 to 3 hrs a night, at the end of it, do you know what u have talked to them abt the whole night? we think we r being more effeicient chatting with 4 or 5 pple simultaneously, we end up communicating nothing!!

after effects..

getting it from no one yet... but thats coz no ones seen it cept my friends yesterday. i am walking around the house in my boxers n a cap. gdness. now i know how much they notice me at home. they dont give a damn! one of the rare times i think that its better that they dont notice me at all.

i woke up finding myself walking for 2 mins to east pt and then coming back. PAPER.
made a beautiful card for my anniversary with Shar. beautiful. no posting yet. but be sure i'll post my masterpiece as soon as shes seen it. i want her to be the first one.

y r gfs nowadaes called 'princess' by their boyfriends? or perhaps more often self proclaimed? i see ever so often in my guy frens' inbox someone named princess. haha. or is it a mistress not to be named thats y they are called princess? i've got another grp of girls in sch who proclaim themsleves as princess followed by their names in MSN. one of them simply calls herself princess..

was at SuperHost yesterday. Lee Teng did well. proud of him. He even had a fan club presided by this cronny fellow whom when asked "why do you support lee teng?" answers "this is a secret. i cannot tell you." my gdness.

and so ticks my otherwise activity-less dae. :)

new hairdo

i figured out that this is the only time i can ever get to do this. and this is one of those things i wana do at least once in my life and show my kids or grand kids what kind of a punk their father was. so this happened.

its been a while

its been a while..
i noe a song that starts like this.

been on a roller coaster ride lately. perhaps i could summ my life lately in a song. had a real bad night the other night at a fav place. girlfriend got angry and well.. blew up in front everyone. argh.. i deserved it she said.

been trying to train on a disappointing team. lack of commitment, lack of attendance, lack of bonding.. perhaps the most impt skill we need to learn in life is to manage our expectations. sometimes we just need to do our best with what our have.

whats with my life lately? am i juz gonna repeat this 8 times in smu and then head to work somewhere? has this been what i wanted for uni? is this what i;ve been looking forward to in the army?

yah.. i did one of those things.

My first blog in the train. Somehow counts towards killing my boredom in the train. I usually just bring my ‘teletubby’ like bleutooth headphones to keep me company on the way to school. I’m already dying. I wonder how do people in the 2 other unis survive.

Went to rouge and there was a live band playing there. Think it was like Don Marino or something, wonder if I spelt that wrongly. But anyway, the songs they played last night sucked a little as compared to the last time I saw them at Momo.

I think people should learn how to summarize their blogs. Becoz I am going nowhere right now. I don’t even know what I am talking abt now! Either that or abbreviations. But the biggest boo boos can come out of abbreviations these days.

Maebe that’s the beauty of blogging itself. Writing something that otherwise wouldn’t be read anywhere else. I think we do all find some comfort in penning your thoughts to a piece of hardened wood pulp that has no choice but to intake our daily crap.

Great way to kill time. I am already at Paya Lebar! With a few checks on the handphone I’ll be in sch in no time at all!

I don’t wanna think I have the time to read others’ blog. That is why I don’t normally go read, unless specifically ORDERED so..

Results are coming out soon. After a huge triumph of an A+ for Managament accounting yesterday, I found out that I got a B for business Law. The subject I was so worried abt. Huge setback. Not that I am a puurfectionist or anything, that I put in huge amounts of hardwork, though last min. but I assumed that last min work always works for me.

Well. I am humbled.

Lets hope for more gd news to come.

marks my STANDARD, CHARTERED dreams available of the future

one friend remarked, "you are the kind of person who consistently needs to look for new challenges to overcome.. to prove something to yourself..... " ---Miss A

i am

i guess.

someone was talking about havin this x mas party that has one of those mistletoe things that anyone who walks below it at the same time have to kiss according to tradition.

i wish i was born in a country like tat.

on sunday i completed one of the goals i set for this yr.

with so so much to lose (a beautiful adidas t shirt that says the above), and so little chance to ever do a marathon again, i decided that i will finish the race no matter how.

and so i did.

my legs hurt like never before. this is the first time i went ahead and finished despite having not any preps at all, due to the never ending exams n stuff (i finished exams only 2 days before the race. and believe mi i din even have time to sleep, not to mention train for the race.)

i went to the race at 0540 in the morning, thanks to my darling shar, and miraculously went on to see yong howe, my youthful and energetic spiritual mentor, in the midst of that thousands of people or so, right in the heart of esplanade. he said God had a part to play in that.

i totally agree.

God is trying to humble me i guess. in cases where i overestimate myself. and i think i do tend to.

Shar's Dad is hell of a happening highly paid Dad i know around. guess wat, he's learning to play a xmas carol song from shar now in the room with us! how's that for a Dad of 3 in his fifties? i wana be a Dad like him.

so well. whats next? wheres the next hill that i have to overcome? whats the next feat that i'm gonna tell people i am doing that makes people go " you siao ah?" untouchable GPAs? or maebe an ironman.? i know.. perhaps the Great Wall of China? lets see.

i hope i have many more marathons to come.